Yeah, I’m being vague — Frankly, I’m too embarrassed about the situation to go into detail. Lets just say I recycled and now I’m paying the price with gaping wounds and wicked regrets.

The ‘N’ Key on this POS laptop fell off a few days back … So, dear letter ‘N’ … Fuck you for falling off.  Fuck you for making it so hard to do simple things … Like type any word with an ‘N’ in it.

I never noticed how many words use the ‘N’ until it fell off … There really are many of them.

You may wonder why I’m going on about the letter ‘N’ — it’s quite simple really … The only other thing I feel like writing about would require that I empty an amazing amount of hate that I’m holding close to my heart right now.  I’m gonna hold on to that hate as a reminder of the pain that caused it.

Anyone wanna risk life and limb to mirror the site somewhere behind “the wall”?

There are some seriously disturbed individuals out there…

Associated Press

SUPERIOR, Wis. – A 20-year-old man received probation after he was convicted of having sexual contact with a dead deer. The sentence also requires Bryan James Hathaway to be evaluated as a sex offender and treated at the Institute for Psychological and Sexual Health in Duluth, Minn.

“The state believes that particular place is the best to provide treatment for the individual,” Assistant District Attorney Jim Boughner said.

Hathaway’s probation will be served at the same time as a nine-month jail sentence he received in February for violating his extended supervision.

He was found guilty in April 2005 of felony mistreatment of an animal after he killed a horse with the intention of having sex with it. He was sentenced to 18 months in jail and two years of extended supervision on that charge as well as six years of probation for taking and driving a vehicle without the owner’s consent.

Hathaway pleaded no contest earlier this month to misdemeanor mistreatment of an animal for the incident involving the deer. He was sentenced Tuesday in Douglas County Circuit Court.

“The type of behavior is disturbing,” Judge Michael Lucci said. “It’s disturbing to the public. It’s disturbing to the court.”

Now — All I have to say is WHY THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU CAN RAISE A CHILD?!?

She’s a good kid, that n., but she was born without the ability to fully grasp reality. She lives in a world of her own, and it is NOT A SANE WORLD.

In her world she doesn’t understand that:

• you run out of chances and get evicted even if you tell your landlord that you’re really gonna try to make rent. After a year of not paying rent on time, and months of not paying rent at all, you’re gonna get thrown to the curb.
• when your train leaves at 5:00, it’s not going to wait for you to show up 5 minutes later… Even though the conductor knows you always ride that train, the 500 other people wanna get home.
• that something is on sale when it’s on sale, not two months later when you decide you wanna buy it. You can’t argue you should get the 20% discount because your dog had diarrhea that day.

Look people — I know that idiots have children every day, and I’m not even calling n. stupid… But she lacks the basic reasoning and survival skills required to take care of her self, much less take care of a child.

I can imagine the quote on the 10 o’clock news:

Well, I just don’t understand why my 4 month old is being taken away from me. I told her that she wasn’t allowed to crawl down Belmont Ave. by herself, after dark. It’s not my fault.

Listen, n., I can understand if you don’t wanna have an abortion — but girl, adoption is an option, and in your case I’m quite sure it’ll eventually be forced on you by the good people at the Illinois Department of Child Welfare. Please save your child from years of bouncing around foster homes or worse. Just for one iota of a second, have the common sense to understand that you’re practically homeless, you don’t have a Job, your now ex-boyfriend IS going to be a deadbeat dad, and you just don’t have the required skills to raise a child.

Well, I’m the last person on the planet that wants to legally force myspace.com to be more responsible for what happens there, but Pamela Rogers is just one of the many reasons I wish they would take a more proactive approach toward keeping kids safe.

But really, I can’t blame you — I am in fact an idiot for thinking people change. I gave you credit that you didn’t deserve and it came back to bite me in the sack.

I really thought I’d be a bit more upset about this final bit of betrayal … Maybe I am and I’m just not letting it all out, or perhaps I’ve watched you decieve for so long I’m just a bit more mentally prepared than anticipated. I figured, at the very least, I’d want to say something hurtful but this is just about all the hurtful I can muster up right now.

Your concepts of love and honesty are fucked — beyond repair I’m afraid. I hope you grow up to learn what it is to be an adult some day.

Fuck you for proving me right.

I mean, I know someone just paid 3+ Million just for the first photos, but I’m sure AJ and Mr. Pitt would hook up good ol’ AntiBlogger, right?

Lets face it, AntiWare is the new Black!

Or better yet – Maybe Angelina would model these for me?

Eh, on second thought, maybe we’ll put her in a nice loose tee-shirt … let that c-section gash heal up a bit first…

But alas – The first step to solving a problem is admitting you have one.

“Hi, My name is AntiBlogger, and I’m an Addict.”

Maybe there’s a support group I can join.